Best of Wishes

[Max]

I wish...
I wish for happyness...
I wish for the people I hold dear to be happy...
I wish for everyone to be happy...

I wish war did not exist.
I wish Disease was just a myth.
I wish sorrow was just fiction.
I wish...I wish...

So many things I wish for.
Self-Centered and Selfish.
That is me.

I never think of others,
I never think of their needs.
I only think of what I know they need.

All knowing I am not.
But I make decisions that I should not.
I twist and turn peoples lives around.
Rarely for the better.

I am a plague.
One that spreads from person to person.
Ruining lives....

And yet I am thanked for it.....

Idealism...Black and White...Good and Evil....

That is what I am always thinking.
That is what I am used to thinking....

A perfect world...
Morals set in my head.
I know whats right and whats wrong.
Whats Noble and whats disgusting.

And yet I am imperfect.

The Image I had made of myself.
The Knight in shining armor I had thought to be.
Was Nothing more than my selfish needs to be so.
To Be everyone savior.

I have hurt people.
I have hurt Many People.
I have hurt Good People.
I have hurt them, because I was blind.

There is no such thing as pure evil, or pure good.

I am not pure good.
No one is.

I am not pure evil.
No one is.

I am imperfect.
Just another man with my hopes and dreams.
Like every other living being in this world.

I wish.
I wish for happyness.
I wish for the people I hold dear to be happy.
I wish for everyone to be happy.

Imperfect Thoughts...
Imperfect Morals...
Imperfect Actions...
Imperfect Decisions...

Many are hurt...
Even more are lost...
But in the end. I can still smile...

I can still look at people and be happy.
I can carry my sins, my misdoings.
I will not hide. I will not Run away.
This is who I am.

I am imperfect. Flawed to the bone.
But I am happy.

I am happy that I am Imperfect.
I am happy that I make mistakes.
I am happy, that through trial and error...
Through pain and hardship...
I can still make people smile...

I am happy...aslong as I am not the only one...

That is happy.....